Jugaad / Of Love and Intimacy

" I remember this one time ... I had this very strong attachment to somebody and we held hands in a very public place in Calcutta and it was the most ordinary thing to do, but for both of us it was very different. It was special, it was almost like being there, being visible to everyone but hiding everything."

In this ongoing project public gestures of intimacy form the departure point to explore friendship and love between men in India.

Deeply moved by these physical affirmations of bonding that are mostly absent in the West, through portraits and interviews I engage in questions surrounding the fluidity of masculinity and sexuality in India. How traditional South Asian modes of male to male interaction might be challenged by Western points of views, dichotomies and gender identity politics is of particular interest.

Understanding that the gestures generally–but not always–do not imply sexuality, I look at them as a gateway that takes me to 'grey spaces' in the private lives of men that allow same sex love to be acted upon, while left unspoken.

Informal interviews I conduct with collaborators from a broad range of identities, classes, educational backgrounds and ages sometimes reveal how men use these traditional 'grey spaces' to pursue their desire for same sex intimacy without identifying as gay or committing themselves to be ‘out’, through use of societal mechanisms that have been described to me as a form of Jugaad. The term Jugaad inhabits the world of simplistic mechanics and bears a slight negative connotation with its inherent lack of an ideal solution in lieu of a 'make do’, only. In the context of this work, however, it encourages a discourse about what is positive/negative about fulfilling sexual desires in different ways, and what the possibilities for the lives of those who desire same sex love in India today are.

As an outsider I understand that only some of the deeply personal journeys of love that I attempt to uncover can be told by me. While this role does afford me opportunities and openness at times, I also encounter the continuum of a veil of ambivalence and fluidity that allows for circumstances to be left untold, something that bears beauty in its liberty of the un-categorized.

Looking inwards, the work expresses my personal debate of notions of romanticized, intimate friendships and my new insights into the kinds of struggles faced by those negotiating same sex love here, exposing my inherently Western ideas of masculinity and intimacy.


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Goal and Chandan stopped on their bike commute, Sahibganj, Jharkhand 2017
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Friends Chotu and Rajan leaving the temple, Sahibganj, Jharkhand 2017
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Day laborers in Sahibganj, Jharkhand 2017
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Yash drying his Gamchha in the breeze, after his morning bath and worship, Sahibganj, Jharkhand 2017
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Gaurab and Ravi asked for a selfie near the Ganges, Sahibganj, Jharkhand 2017
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Irfan came to the hotel after Friday prayer, Lucknow, Uttar Pradesh 2017
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
Transcriptions and translations of informal interviews conducted in March/April 2017
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
Transcriptions and translations of informal interviews conducted in March/April 2017
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
Transcriptions and translations of informal interviews conducted in March/April 2017
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
Transcriptions and translations of informal interviews conducted in March/April 2017
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
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Installation at Clark House Initiative, Mumbai / Preview Exhibition of the ongoing project
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Transcriptions and translations of informal interviews conducted in March/April 2017